harsh path to enligtenment

i was that weird girl dancing the halls stuck in my fairy kissed world my altered reality
you where that slave to pop culture fuck anything that moves true son of vanity
a jock, a lettermen , the elite

ill never know why of every girl thrown before your feet you would pick me
reluctant at first i came to you wondering if taming the playa was my destiny
stolen kisses in desterted hall ways intimate touches in darkened rooms
in the wake of your barren lust like every idiot girl before me i let love bloom

i craved your attention like addicts crave a fix struting like a peacock to win a mate
shit i was good for a fuck but not worthy enough to date
but i guess i forgot about the separation of the classes
division of the masses,
i was crestfallen at my bodies rashness

but time and time again i opened my window leting you in again to rape my cosmos, like to your friends you'd boast
i prostrated myself before you apon hands and knees forgeting the individual i once was laying open my soul to roast
i heard about the others, but i turned a deaf ear to my friends as they pleaded to turn my head
for what was i without my mind, for it still layed beneath u, all thoughts on what we did in my bed

blinded by what i thought to be love i threw all caution to the wind and brushed aside my fears
i did the unthinkable, i spoke aloud of our "relationship" to you anougnst your peers
you jolted me to reality shook the foudation of the world i had thought to construct with you
you laghed in my face, just another wanton slut begging for more you said, i didnt know wat to do

you pulled the thread attached to my frail illusion of actuality
leaving me naked and un gaurded in world blown bare by the winds of reality
heart covered in this anti-awareness callous for which you are to blame
i pour feeling into words and constuct consciousness into spoken flame


this is my 1st post so thank you every one in advance for your elucidation... have at it and may the fates smile apon u all ^_^ blessed be

this is a very intense poem NaKtl!
i am almost always fascinated by the way a poet renders the words, it is like the words are almost certainly painted onto a blank canvas.

What you have here is a poem which is accentuated in intensity by the way you choose to write the lines, and the sparse punctuation.
A great poem into the travails of an emotional dimension.

thank you for sharing.

And welcome!

First write? Are you sure? You'e got talent!

thank you all so much for the comments. greatly appriceiated ^_^