i wanted to cut by poetrylover I've held my tounge For months on end Yesterday I had enough Yesterday I reached my boiling point Today was just another bad day I may have seemed happy to some But others know that I was upset They saw past my shield That protects my from the outside world I'm sorry to the ones I've lashed out at tonight I tried my hardest to hold it in But I guess it just want enough Because I did it anyways Right now I wish I had my blades So I could split my flesh Over and over again And bleed profusely all over my bed But I can't do that anymore Because on Sunday I gave him the blades And he buried them out in lake la Somewhere far away from me Out of reach of temptation It's hard to quit the habit It was/is addicting so it's hard to kick Somehow I got joy from my blood Running down my thigh or even my wrist I wish I never started it Because this is hard I keep wanting to cut But I made you all a promise One that I intend to keep Until this habit no longer tempts me I love you all So if you can forgive me I hope I am granted the forgiveness In which I beg for you now. Added to GotPoetry.com ( http://www.gotpoetry.com ) on 04-May-2012