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Place to write. - Yesterday's Top New Poems - Last 10 en-us 22-Jul-2008 CPG-Nuke Dragonfly GotPoetry.com Poetry 111 40 http://gotpoetry.com/images/autoheader/logo-slogan.gif http://gotpoetry.com/ http://gotpoetry.com/Poems/l_op=ratepoems/lid=34319.htmlConfused at best I am right now<br /> inside me is a love for someone forbidden<br /> asking if she loves me somehow<br /> that all her feelings from me are kept hidden<br /> <br /> My confusion is added to by so much strife<br /> at home all is not well as it should be<br /> stranded somewhere between my lover and wife<br /> longing for the one I love to see<br /> <br /> I need you so bad right now little one<br /> you are like me and we share so much<br /> if you wish me gone and to see this done<br /> do you no longer yearn for my touch?<br /> <br /> I am confused and in turmoil over thee<br /> I love you like I have never loved another<br /> I want to take the time to see<br /> If I am the one who is your lifelong lover<br /> <br /> Confused,so lost without a clue<br /> never before have I been so lost<br /> still saying to my heart I love you<br /> and I would be there with you no matter the cost<br /> <br /> What is this hold you have on my heart<br /> it is so strong I see you each night I sleep<br /> you the one I have loved from the start<br /> and for you alone I silently weep<br /> <br /> ........I love you,miles mean nothing...... 22-Jul-2008 http://gotpoetry.com/Poems/l_op=ratepoems/lid=34339.htmlWe may not realizeThat everything we do<br /> Affects not only our lives , but touchs others too<br /> A single happy smile can brighten up the day<br /> For anyone who happens to be passing by your way<br /> <br /> A little bit of thoughtfulness to show someone you care<br /> Creates a ray of sunshine for both of you to share<br /> Everytime you offer someone a helping hand<br /> Everytime you show a friend you care and understand<br /> <br /> Everytime you give someone a kind and gentle word<br /> You help someone find beauty in a life thats hard to live<br /> For happiness breeds happiness And loving ways spreads love<br /> And giving is a treasure that contentment is made of<br /> <br /> I've looked to you so many times to see your special smile<br /> I've come to you for company, to talk a little while<br /> I've laughed with you and shared with you A world of special things<br /> I've learned from you the special joy that only caring brings 22-Jul-2008 http://gotpoetry.com/Poems/l_op=ratepoems/lid=34327.htmlI watch as my garbage goes up in value, <br /> while dumpster-rats tear apart <br /> and pick through <br /> my plastic blue recyclable trash bags <br /> for five cents deposit bottles, <br /> and semi-precious medals<br /> I might’ve foolishly thrown away.<br /> <br /> They’re the new prospectors, dragging <br /> and pushing these four wheeled burros<br /> (Supermarket shopping carts)<br /> from one trashcan to another, <br /> <br /> staking five-minute claims. <br /> <br /> While panning for these new versions <br /> of gold nuggets, bound to be found <br /> in every trashcan in the city. 22-Jul-2008 http://gotpoetry.com/Poems/l_op=ratepoems/lid=34297.htmlWalking in silence, captivated by the feeling in the air,<br /> <br /> the guilt, the fear the feeling of despair.<br /> <br /> so much confusion, so much pain,<br /> <br /> grazing through fields sowed with tears of pain,<br /> <br /> death is my shepherd , there is no escape. 22-Jul-2008 http://gotpoetry.com/Poems/l_op=ratepoems/lid=34324.htmlThey say love, is a special thing<br /> I’ve never found that a fact<br /> Look what love has done to me<br /> My body blue and black<br /> Behind love I found pain and anger<br /> Nothing but pain I feel now<br /> Love got me rooted to his ground<br /> And soon it’ll have me taking my final bow<br /> <br /> Love got me lying to myself<br /> It got me fake<br /> And as for life, well I’m loosin’ that race<br /> Love got me meeting God face to face<br /> <br /> That voice I hear not through my ears<br /> Keeps telling he loves me<br /> But that love has fist, no heart no mind<br /> Perfect aim, aided with pain,<br /> And I still can’t seem to find…<br /> <br /> What should I do?<br /> I’m afraid to leave<br /> I’m afraid to stay<br /> If I enter either situation<br /> My fates result is still the same<br /> <br /> <br /> What do I do?<br /> Alone I can’t find the answer<br /> And when I look nothing gets returned<br /> I need the strength<br /> If I run through this fire<br /> So in the end I won’t burned<br /> <br /> I’m screaming because those aren’t my eyes<br /> I’ve lost my heart and I can seem to find<br /> Where I’ve gone, and I can not see<br /> Cause that person looking back, that ain’t me<br /> <br /> Look up hate and you’ll see my face<br /> I’m trying to find my way but the lights’ so dim<br /> So dim, that his love for me defines me<br /> Look up love he’s made me its antonym<br /> <br /> <br /> What should I do?<br /> I’m afraid to leave<br /> I’m afraid to stay<br /> If I enter either situation<br /> My fates result is still the same<br /> <br /> What do I do?<br /> Alone I can’t find the answer<br /> And when look nothing gets returned<br /> I need the strength<br /> If I run through this fire<br /> So in the end I won’t burned 22-Jul-2008 http://gotpoetry.com/Poems/l_op=ratepoems/lid=34312.htmlWounds still sore from the night before<br /> Words sink in like little papercuts that sting<br /> Hands that rip at my heart string; then pull me back in.<br /> Completely in love but scared out of my skin. 22-Jul-2008 http://gotpoetry.com/Poems/l_op=ratepoems/lid=34331.htmlIn a desolate clearing,<br /> Lies a lonely tree.<br /> Hear its crying,<br /> Just let it be.<br /> For self-isolation<br /> Is the only key,<br /> To protect the world,<br /> From me, the tree. 22-Jul-2008 http://gotpoetry.com/Poems/l_op=ratepoems/lid=34337.htmlholding rosary beads<br /> a cross of jesus dangles<br /> i have prayed, not like today<br /> i left my own body, left my own heart<br /> crawled into a space underneath the porch<br /> stared out into the searing heat of day and cried<br /> grown men aren't supposed to cry, but i did that day<br /> <br /> some may say I lost it<br /> that particular day, that night<br /> I awoke from anguish and heartbreak<br /> you see, i wasn't searching for anyone<br /> I didn't take a single thing seriously, it's all a joke<br /> i asked the almighty for some assistance, he had headphones on<br /> listening to his own music, playing the savior, turning away strength<br /> <br /> in my mind<br /> I walked for years<br /> centuries have passed<br /> it's been just over ten years<br /> I cry like a baby, my weakness<br /> is your love, that I now live without<br /> my heart is full, while my soul is empty<br /> I wish i could say something funny, something to make you laugh<br /> <br /> if you're lookin' down<br /> and readin' this, laugh with me<br /> this crazy old sod, pining for you<br /> wonderin' if dying is a way of being able to hold you<br /> in the back of my mind, i laugh this out, knowing the absurdity <br /> yet, in that laughter, there's the possibility, of seeing you again<br /> being scolded for leaving the living behind, leaving my children<br /> <br /> I can hang here<br /> with you there and me here<br /> I can do this, live long, maybe not so happy<br /> my heart is strong, my love even stronger, my faith<br /> faith in what once was and still is, can overcome, what will be<br /> there's an angel watching over me, watching over us all, just above<br /> when I see the sun, gently override the clouds as i did tonight, it's you<br /> smiling, letting me know, there's life yet to live, I am better because of you<br /> <br /> I could say, write all kinds of foolishness<br /> get all political, speak of today's strife, where we all stand<br /> I may not be happy with where I am physically, day to day life<br /> I still bring ya' flowers, cry, laugh, joke around, generally act the fool<br /> it's kinda funny, you and I, things never seemed to work out for the long term<br /> life always got in the way, but those times in between were monumentally special<br /> i guess i should quit writing, till I find better words, I'm not angry, I just miss ya!!<br /> ya make me smile, each and every day..of course you can see that..love ya 22-Jul-2008 http://gotpoetry.com/Poems/l_op=ratepoems/lid=34328.htmlSaw my brother <br /> on 53rd & 8th.<br /> Didn’t say shit to him!<br /> Truth is. <br /> Really don’t remember <br /> what he did,<br /> but for some reason.<br /> It still pisses me off.. 22-Jul-2008 http://gotpoetry.com/Poems/l_op=ratepoems/lid=34314.htmlI'm going line to line<br /> toe to toe<br /> page to blood soaked page<br /> with the bible<br /> the vedas<br /> the quran and the hadith<br /> the tanakh and the torah<br /> the mantras and the sutras<br /> the scrolls and the stones<br /> the books upon books<br /> together stuck by spit and sin soaked bindings<br /> tied too tight for the tongue to taste truth tenfold<br /> let alone once<br /> <br /> I will capture each chapter<br /> become the book master<br /> and reordain the ministry of the slain without names<br /> redistribbute deserved fame<br /> make each and every<br /> Prophet<br /> Messenger<br /> Bhikku, Bodhisatva or Buddha<br /> known for the humans they were<br /> with inherent fault<br /> <br /> I will fill the wounds with salt<br /> and let the rivers of blood dry up into a red clay<br /> with which to build a new day<br /> a new home <br /> a new planet<br /> a new universe<br /> <br /> for every Ohm Mani Padme Hum of bliss or emptiness or cyclical meditative hypnotics<br /> <br /> every Oh My God of splendor, fear, amazement, or compete and utter juisance climactic pleasure<br /> <br /> every Olam va ed barukh a ta adonai sung, or chanted, or merely mumbled with mistakes many make in corners<br /> <br /> every simple<br /> Oh man I love you<br /> fraternally like a brother<br /> when I mean<br /> maternally like a mother<br /> I need you like no other<br /> fellow human<br /> creature of salt water and mud<br /> I love you<br /> I'm just afraid to push past the paradigms in place<br /> past the prismatic preset limitations<br /> concerning gender<br /> humanity<br /> and love<br /> most of all love<br /> <br /> I envision holding a child's hand<br /> the last virgin vestige of vitality unvanquished<br /> and a languish<br /> despair for language<br /> which thus far for emotions<br /> the strongest word we have is love<br /> not nearly enough to<br /> break the bonds brought about by being born abstractly<br /> with no more purpose than to worship holy God<br /> God which is everything<br /> no more flesh and blood purpose than to live life<br /> for humanity is an art form perfected by the divine<br /> abstractly our only purpose is to live<br /> <br /> by God, Adonai, Allah, Jesus, Moses, Mohammed and Abraham<br /> by Vishnu, Shiva, and Hare Hare Krishna Hare<br /> by all the Buddhas<br /> I am going to live life a write my own story internally bleeding<br /> blood soaked pages with soul pen ever writing<br /> soul teeth ever biting<br /> <br /> I'm gonna be a fucking beautiful work of art<br /> what are you gonna be? 22-Jul-2008