Life Of A Sinner

Things went left
So you can't blame me for being bitter.
I'm just your average girl
Living the life of a sinner.
You don't seem to care,
It seems there's nothing left.
Another unanswered call
With no response to my text.
It breaks my heart,
Yet I'm not surprised
I'm chasing a dream
But its fading quickly before my eyes.
You play games with me
I'm waiting here still
It seems that you hate me,
But I love you and I always will.
I can't take your words to heart,
You think I'm a fool.
My heart feels empty and worthless
But it won't stop loving you.
My mistake,
It's my own fault my heart aches.
I love you so much more,
So much more than I can even take.
I can't go back in time
To change things for the better.
I want to get over you
But it's taking me forever.
I'm trying to move forward
I feel so fucking hurt.
Trying to let go
But I keep getting covered in all your dirt.
I could tell you you're wrong
Though you wouldn't even care.
I want to let go
But losing you is what I fear.
I'm losing all hope,
I gotta find a way.
Running away is hard
But it's so much harder to stay.