Analysis of swirl

in all honesty
I don't think there's a person out there who will actually
and wholeheartedly fall in love with me,
it’s not that I’m not good looking enough
or I'm boring, spineless or unpleasant
actually maybe, I can be a little bit of all those things
I don't think those qualities make me unworthy of love
I believe there's nothing special about me, really
how could a girl look at me,
and want to know everything about me?
everything’ that has made me “me”
how could a girl fill her mind with
thoughts of me to help her fall asleep?
how could any girl want me in a way that isn’t purely infatuation?
why would anyone want me, for me?