Analysis of At that very moment

I was sitting alone , calmly
I was feeling sad infact I was heart broken
My mind was blank
My heart started beating fast
I couldn't believe I was the one sitting there,
blaming myself
I never thought of a moment ,
where I will feel my heart breaking into pieces
Where tears will flow uncontrollable in my face
Where pain will become my second name
Where happiness will become my worst enemy
Where commiting suicide will be my only solution