Analysis of Premeditated

If I did not mean something done.
With a taking of time in my mind,
Praying.
Hoping and wishing to receive benefits.
Yet...
My actions resulted,
In an unexpected negative outcome.

If I had known this.
I would not have premeditated it to do.
Or practice and rehearse to perfection,
A success to achieve without it to doubt!
To then find out,
The best excuses and alibis I could create...
No one near would hear me explain,
What I did claimed to not mean?
Had been purposely meant to be seen...
Anyway!

With a telling of steps.
And what will come next.
Proven.
From a camera carried to capture reactions.
Done to do then...
Request from a witnessing observer,
My own picture taken standing tall and proud.
While broadly smiling and pointing,
To those I victimized.
As if to be a campaigning politician.
To have had premeditated a victorious win.