I love you, -blank-!

It’s a new place for me,
A new road that I seek,
A lost inspiration,
An ongoing dream,
I’ll be there at the station
To catch the train...I’m in!

Fresh smell of washed curtains,
They’re hanging in the wind,
A splash of last year’s mosquitoes,
And those sparkles of the nonstop pain.

I hold the notebook like a child’s forehead;
Or perhaps a man’s?
A lover? My lover?
I wish I could know.
The only feelings I know about, are mine; but they’re not certain yet.
I am familiar with the feelings I express for my present loves. The ones I live with;
I don’t know you yet though.
My dad’s in pain,
But God helps out,
My mom’s in pain,
Dad needs to heal,
My grandma & I are neutrals,
But in pain too.
Oh if you could just feel it too...